Recently, one of my parts described a vision they had of God closing portals and sealing them shut with gold so they could never be opened again. I found myself thinking a lot about that gold. Why gold? Why would God use gold to seal something shut? God doesn’t need gold to close a door. … Continue reading Sealed with Gold: When God Closes a Door
Desperate to Be Loved: How Attachment Wounds Can Keep Us Stuck
I wrote a blog called Getting God's Attention when I was trying to get through October last year. It's the only way I know that works. I grew up in church, and I was a Christian for at least thirty years before I learned about the Holy Spirit. I think one of the biggest wins … Continue reading Desperate to Be Loved: How Attachment Wounds Can Keep Us Stuck
You Don’t Live There Anymore: Finding Safety and Authority in Jesus
I'm working on a teaching for an upcoming group on the topic of Halloween. I was trying to think about all the different information that might be helpful to survivors who are just starting out on their healing journey and how to pair that with information for those who are farther along in their healing. … Continue reading You Don’t Live There Anymore: Finding Safety and Authority in Jesus
Understanding Activation Calls: Hidden Triggers and Decisions
Activation phone calls can happen without the presenter having any conscious knowledge of them. From the outside, everything can look completely normal. The person is going about everyday life, making decisions that appear to be their own. The goal of Return Programs (call backs) is to draw the survivor back to the cult for a … Continue reading Understanding Activation Calls: Hidden Triggers and Decisions
Yom Kippur, the Scapegoat, and Surviving Ritual Abuse
I was having a conversation about joining a book club yesterday and remembered having to write a twelve-page literary analysis in college on the short story The Lottery written by Shirley Jackson. The story weaves cult themes throughout it without acknowledging anything related to a cult. It is about a fictional small American community of … Continue reading Yom Kippur, the Scapegoat, and Surviving Ritual Abuse
Overcoming Misunderstandings: The Power of Asking Questions
Recently, someone said something to me that hurt my feelings. Based on the information I had, it felt like I was being treated as though I had taken ten steps backward and the growth in my life wasn’t being honored. That wasn’t actually what was happening, but it was how I understood it at the … Continue reading Overcoming Misunderstandings: The Power of Asking Questions
Navigating Healing: The Journey of Overcoming Shame and Loneliness
When I first learned about SRA and began working on my healing about six years ago, sessions were incredibly difficult. The difficulty did not begin when the session started, and it did not end when the session was over. I was desperate for it and yet the whole process hurt. There was the waiting, the … Continue reading Navigating Healing: The Journey of Overcoming Shame and Loneliness
Navigating Trust and Attachment in Healing
I desperately wanted healing, but I was terrified of building new relationships to help me get there. One of the things I remember is that I was not able to tell my safe person what I needed because I could not risk the attachment. When I needed something different from what was happening, I did … Continue reading Navigating Trust and Attachment in Healing
Navigating Healing: Questions to Ask Yourself
How do I know if I’m avoiding the harder things or asking myself to do something I don’t yet have the support to get through? I can want healing with everything in me and still not know how to take the next step. We know programming lies to us, so before I decide that I’m … Continue reading Navigating Healing: Questions to Ask Yourself
Recognizing Healing: Signs and Reflections
How can I know that I am healing when there are still things I struggle with and things I am not ready to face? How do I recognize the progress I have made when something gets hard again, and denial kicks in or I start questioning whether anything has actually changed? I feel like this … Continue reading Recognizing Healing: Signs and Reflections