What if the reason The Matrix felt so unsettling when you first watched it is because it touches on a question every human being eventually asks: What if the reality I see isn’t the whole story? For many people, the film is simply an iconic science-fiction movie. But for me, under the action scenes and … Continue reading Was The Matrix Trying to Tell Us Something? Awakening, Deception, and the Search for Truth
Tearing Down Walls: A Journey to Healing and Connection
There were walls built inside me long before I ever knew what to call them. No one could point to them from the outside, but inside, they were thick, reinforced, and necessary. Growing up surrounded by darkness, control, fear, and spiritual distortion, those walls became my way of staying alive. They held back memories. They … Continue reading Tearing Down Walls: A Journey to Healing and Connection
The Day I Climbed into the TV to Find a Family
The TV hummed before it glowed. That’s how I remember it, not just turning on, but warming up, like it was waking up. The screen flickered blue, then gray static, then alive. I would sit cross-legged on the floor, close enough that the static buzz filled my ears and the light painted my face. Behind … Continue reading The Day I Climbed into the TV to Find a Family
Do Cults use Tattoos to Control People?
Tattoos can be used as a way to assign identity, signal belonging, rank, or loyalty. You can see this in gang dynamics, extremist groups, trafficking networks, and cult structures. In trafficking rings, tattoos are used for branding to make it easier for the buyers and sellers to recognize human trafficking victims. Symbols placed on the … Continue reading Do Cults use Tattoos to Control People?
ACCESS, AGREEMENTS, & AUTHORITY
There is a truth that is rarely named, even in spaces created to help survivors heal. I don't think it's intentional, people just don't know what they don't know. The danger in this is that the Word tells us people perish for a lack of knowledge. It's our natural parental instinct to love our children … Continue reading ACCESS, AGREEMENTS, & AUTHORITY
The Storm is Officially Here
I read the words tonight that the storm is officially here and realized that those words mean something very different to me as a survivor. Honestly, I wanted to ask them when exactly they thought the storm ever left. Sometimes, I feel like I've come so far and learned so much. Then there are moments … Continue reading The Storm is Officially Here
I Could Not Call Him Father
When I first started healing, I could not even think about my dad. It brought so much pain and loss to the surface. I don't know what I wanted or expected when I first listened to the video at the end of this post, but it certainly wasn't the emotional reaction I had. Nonetheless, it's … Continue reading I Could Not Call Him Father
Can My Parts Hear Me Talking to Them?
With dissociative identity disorder (DID) that developed outside of SRA or mind control programming, parts tend to be able to hear each other much easier. They have a much less developed internal world without the bombs and traps that send survivors spiraling when set off. The front presenter part can still go for years without … Continue reading Can My Parts Hear Me Talking to Them?
Why “Send It Back to the Sender” Can Backfire
Here is a question another survivor asked, and every survivor eventually has to face: What happens if you know you are experiencing witchcraft, but you don’t realize that the source is you? What happens if you ask God to send it back to the sender, only to discover that you are the sender, and you … Continue reading Why “Send It Back to the Sender” Can Backfire
Holiday Grief
Grief during the holidays is the hardest of all, and for many survivors, it can hit with a force that feels impossible to explain. Everywhere you look, there are decorations, lights, and cheerful reminders of a season that the world calls joyful. You just want to buy groceries, and suddenly you're surrounded by garland, ornaments, … Continue reading Holiday Grief